I've noticed one thing about myself. I have this inept ability to feel others pain. If you don't have that gift, you'll never truly understand how it feels. With the gift comes the price: when those you see hurting or in bad situations don't want your help. When all you can do is sit on the sidelines watching...waiting...and praying....hoping that their situation gets better or at least they will talk to you about it so you can comfort them.
I also have the God given gift to read people. That can be entirely annoying when I don't want to read people or better yet the situation. I cannot just simply be ina situation without my brain working 132423 mph. I observe everything from what words are said, how people are positioned, what's being worn, how many times a smile is given, but most importantly I look at the eyes. I loooooove looking at eyes. Especially blue eyes, there's just something about blue eyes. But, I digress (as usual).
The point is, God made me this way. I love people. I don't necessarily love being around people all the time, but when someone is hurting, I want to be the guy they look to. That's especially true for my future wife out there/ nearer future girlfriend (there I go digressing again).
How do I handle being rejected? Or even worse, pouring out all of this love onto someone but not even getting the occasional "How are You" back from them without me pressing them (which generally means it isn't genuine). Well first off, I complain, and complain, and complain. But after a while I get tired of complaining to my friends (which I'm doin less and less) and to God. Eventually I just accept it and move on. I'm in the process of doing that with some people in my life. I can try to be there for you, I can put my emotions on the line, but you have to WANT it.
Where am I going with this? This is kinda the same concept that we as Christians come to accept in Christ. Christ cares about us. Unconditionally, which is much more than I can do. And most of the times we don't return that caring. I mean really, how many of us asks God, "Yo, how you doin?" Nooo, its not in our human nature. But still, Christ loves the Church. As Christians we are called to live like Jesus. Jesus is our example and the greatest commandment is to Love God, however the second one is to Love People (Matthew 22:36-40).
Jesus can and does love us at all times. But, in order us to fully feel that love, we have to want it. If we don't accept him to be our Lord and Savior, you may feel the love of Christ but you won't feel the LOVE of Christ. The love gives you peace when everything around you is ridiculous. That LOVE gives you unspeakable joy. It's the greatest love of all. People say that the only human love that is unconditional is a mother's love to her child. Well I'm here to tell you that Jesus' love is even greater than that.
So what have I weened from this situation? I'm never going to stop caring about you. There may come a point where I stop calling/texting/checking up on you as often as I do. But, that doesn't mean I don't care about you. If anyone comes up to me and tells me that they are broken, I will stop everything I am doing to do whatever it takes to attempt to make you feel better. I am aware that there are going to be times that my attempts may not be great enough, but what I do know is that I have a Friend in Jesus and I have the greatest power in the world: the power of Prayer. And that my friends, is all I ever need.
